The day was full of pain, at least for my family. I mean, like my dad's side of the family is crying except me. My cousin died today from blood cancer. I never really knew him much. He was about 18, my father's sister's son... that's pretty much it. I've never even met him. Most of my family was in Pakistan, while we were in Canada, Saskatchewan, Regina. Our family has never returned to Pakistan since we arrived in Canada. I looked around and saw my younger siblings crying too. I was surprised because they knew him as much as I did. On the other hand, I was still deciding whether to cry or not. I'm only 9, give me a break. My father cried more. After my parents said a prayer for my cousin Yaseen, I went to my room to sleep. Instead of sleeping, all I could think about was how my mother scared me by thinking about getting blood cancer. I am very picky when it comes to food, my mother's food. She told me that she was not in good health and then became like my grandfather and Yaseen. I never thought I would get blood cancer, come on. What would happen if only boys in my family got cancer? If so, I'm good. But what if this isn't the case? What happens if I get cancer? As I would always tell myself, it's not a problem now, so don't worry. I ended up falling asleep a lot quicker than I thought I would. The days passed and I hoped my parents would move on to another topic, something other than looking at old photos and talking about Yaseen. It got pretty annoying because I never felt bad about what happened. I felt better at school without letting them know about my cousin. Well, everyone except my best friend, Amber. I told her exactly how I felt and the whole incident. "I feel... middle of paper... how boring my life is. All I'm waiting for is death. Maybe suicide could make this problem easier. I shouldn't have to suffer this annoying punishment of mine. There has to be... . Where is my mom, I don't care? She probably has better things to do than look over her dying daughter's body. "Sorry, I'm late today, Hadiyah. I had important work to do." It was Amber." Yes, that's fine. I was just thinking about death." I said darkly "Was that the only thing you could do?" He asked as he sat next to me. I didn't answer." Look, Hadiyah. When life puts you in tough situations, don't say "why me", say "try me". "After hearing this I smiled. I felt stronger... and happier than I thought my afternoon would be. I was going to beat cancer no matter what. I just have to keep trying, over and over again..